Tried to fill a hole by filling
holes, but it was just a
waste.
All it did was give my mouth
a foul after taste.
Thought fucking around would
reach around my sadness
all the strangers just added to
the madness and the anger
of being a stranger in my own
skin. Where to begin? Lay
back and take back everything
I said. I changed my mind I
just want some head.

Sleeping with VPs trying to
get ahead. All it left me was
well fed, well bed, penthouse
innovations, see the rich
and famous accommodations. The
temptations no longer became
tempting. Instinctually
these cravings were affecting
my drive my glide my
swag my bag so Pappa
got a new one. Spew it
up, review it up now
we all done. Pull the plug on my
respirator - DO NOT RESURRECT DO NOT
reconstruct.

I’m done chasin’ paper. I’ll face
my maker as a quaker. Atheist
with a theological thesis. “Do
right” - that’s my only basis. My
victims are faceless to make it
easier to cope and I hope I’m
done with countless blind pokes. Roll it
up. Puff it out. Watch it drift
away: smoke out of scope spoke
from the mope blooming from the wall.
Flowers for Algernon, sex requests from
the anons, from beyond
the pale …
I wail …
I thought
my thought.
I thought
my thought.
I fought
my thought.
I think
I’m fraught.

From beyond the pale
yeah, that’s where I chase
my tail.
That’s where I get my
Ahab on.
My harpoon on.
My lampoon on.
Afterwards get my
shampoo on
after I get my goo
on.
Pay attention school’s
on.

I think
my thoughts.
I think
my thoughts.
I shrink
my thoughts.
I sink
my thoughts.